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Dear Readers,
According to Frost, the “making” of a poem “begins in delight and ends in wisdom.” In this edition of STR, we present poems frothy and light as ice cream and as “heavy” as a stone Buddha, all following Frost’s dictate. Indeed, the making of ice cream in “Slow Churned” may well serve as metaphor for the making of a poem. Other simple tasks also morph into metaphor. For instance, the “lifetime” of a man’s shaving becomes an epic journey like Odysseus’s “foam and grit lining the sink like a dirty seashore.” The killing of a fly becomes an execution. An ex-con “dies” and is “reborn” a poet “carving poems out of stone.” Borders become “a yellow line . . . no one can pass,” holding us in “like the shell of a tortoise or a bad egg.” Even Billy the Kid, in a bookstore, gets his turn. Finding poetry “as dangerous as his fast gun,” he shoots it out with Federico Lorca and reads Ferlinghetti.
Peace&Hope,
Kevin J. McDaniel, Founder of Speckled Trout Review
Nancy Dillingham, Associate Poetry Editor
Featured poets: KB Ballentine, Ace Boggess, Chris Bullard, Tom Dvorske, Mary Fister, Lynn Gilbert,
Ben Groner III, Joan Mazza, K.E. McCoy, George Moore, Laurie D. Morrissey, Leah Mueller, Lorrie Ness, Richard Rubin, Leland Seese, Russell Thorburn _________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Forgetting You I went to the woods, left your grin in the dark, but you kept smiling from the grain of the bark. I leaned into your roughness, arms stretched wide, but scraped my cheek and shredded my nails, then found an ax and a five-gallon pail. I cut the trunk down, hacked every branch and built a campfire that could melt an avalanche. You warmed my hands, my toes tingling, too, as flickers of flames and sparks climbed the night, devouring your voice in shadows and light. But you sang again when a tree frog appeared, kept on until dawn when storms crashed through. Desperate, I admit, I tossed you aside, then waited for lightning to strike its mark. When it did, your humming abandoned my heart, and you came back as a raindrop instead. Some days the weather is perfectly clear; on other days gray tempests appear. Now you are there; now you are not. If anything’s left, I’ll leave it to rot. Erasure Lost in mist, even the familiar becomes foreign. I could be in the Skelligs or the Andes, one foot ready to lead me over a cliff-edge—no one knowing to search for me, my cry caught on only moss and rock. It’s odd, this going in gray, suffused in silence and droplets that bead eyelashes and hair though it’s not raining, like stepping into a Basham painting and vanishing into the raw unknown. Twilight dissolves into darkness, more dramatic than fog’s earlier monochrome. Somewhere, beyond my seeing, the moon perfumes the heavens— light, more light.KB Ballentine’s eighth collection, Spirit of Wild, launched in March with Blue Light Press. Her earlier books can be found with Iris Press, Blue Light Press, Middle Creek Publishing, and Celtic Cat Publishing. Published in North Dakota Quarterly, Atlanta Review, and Haight-Ashbury Literary Journal, her work also appears in anthologies including I Heard a Cardinal Sing (2022), The Strategic Poet (2021), Pandemic Evolution (2021), and Carrying the Branch: Poets in Search of Peace (2017). Learn more at www.kbballentine.com. ___________________________________________________________________________________________________________________ Solo Show Night before my birthday in my last year of freedom, I went to see Michael Glabicki from Rusted Root perform solo on a riverboat. I sat next to him at the bar. We chatted about hockey, a new casino in Pittsburgh, & the psychology of writing alone versus in collaboration. Then my friend arrived with her red hair & black dress that sounded louder music. We hugged, held hands as if dating, sat together during the set while songs stirred feelings we thought cake batter that turned out to be honey. She went home to her boyfriend who shared my birthday, & I to my wife on whom I never slept around despite occasions of overwhelming love. The pause from normalcy was enough: two hours of bodies glued by riffs. We were fires that joined in a brittle wood before splitting to fizzle separately in the rain. Goodbye for Now, Goodbye I did as you asked. I died inside & was reborn an ex-con alone, poet carving poems out of stone, a layabout lazing in autumn sun, a singer—voiceless— drowned out by the winter wind. I did as you asked. I died a little more each hour & was better for it, rich with hope—a curse— life would improve with the icy pristine scent of snow falling across a landscape witnessed without you.
Ace Boggess is author of six books of poetry, most recently Escape Envy. His writing has appeared in Michigan Quarterly Review, Notre Dame Review, Harvard Review, and other journals. An ex-con, he lives in Charleston, West Virginia, where he writes and tries to stay out of trouble. _______________________________________________________________________________________________ On Swatting a Fly What kind of a soul transmigrates into a fly? That suggests pretty bad karma, if you ask me. Something he did, something he thought about doing. The only way out from a bug’s life is execution. Hands together, tranquilized by a shaft of sunlight, he was begging for my downstroke to come. I did him a favor, really. That’s what all murderers say.
Chris Bullard is a retired judge who lives in Philadelphia. In 2022, Main Street Rag Publishing published his poetry chapbook Florida Man, and Moonstone Press published his poetry chapbook The Rainclouds of y. His poetry has appeared recently in Jersey Devil, Stonecrop, Wrath-Bearing Tree, Waccamaw, and other publications. He was nominated this year for the Pushcart Prize. _______________________________________________________________________________________________ A Story about Men Every morning I slide a blade along my throat, up to my chin, turn it under my nose, and bring it along my cheeks in a tiresome ritual intended to make me feel and look clean. So close to suicide it would likely be called an accident. I never leave notes, except on the rare occasion my wife and I are on separate schedules. It stretches before me—this task—as long as the rest of my life, every day confronting the will to live, the will to commit. Standing now in front of the mirror, foam and grit lining the sink like a dirty seashore, I see Odysseus, in his cloud of hair, ancient and beggarly, knock on the door of his own house after twenty years, waiting to be let in.
Tom Dvorske lives in central Florida and works at Florida Polytechnic University in multiple academic departments. His work has appeared, or is forthcoming, in Cloudbank, Sentence, Passages North, RE:AL, Texas Review, Louisville Review and, in the anthology, It’s Not You, It’s Me: the Poetry of Breakup (Ed. Jerry Williams, Overlook Press, 2010). His chapbook, What You Know, was published by Lazy Frog Press in 2002. _________________________________________________________________________________________________ What Gallops Near When last spring’s mud dried, I trusted enough to ride down the path sheened with leaf buds, reached the end where a hay field opened up, seized by its glory. I let him out and galloped, and he did not harden his mouth or run away but stayed lightly in my hand. As the sun gentled my back, I rose up in my stirrups that he might better fly. I curved my legs around his sides, gave in to his urge to gallop on, unhinged the fifty-year-old stiffnesses in my hips, ankles and wrists, suppled them out with his reaching, became unseated by how much I knew then, how little I know now. When I returned to the barn, my daughter was grooming a strawberry roan, whose owner never shows, but whose ribs do. She told me she curried him twice, and his back arched up. Then, she brushed him with the dandy, polished his hooves the full two hours while I was out, put him away with five carrots she broke apart with her teeth. This reminds me of a horse who suppled through serpentines, basculed over high fences, and all I had to do was follow him over. But I put him away, stopped coming, shunned the clear gift of him, and, all these thirty years later, I still see his eye that asks whether he was to blame for his mud-caked coat, burdocked mane, the idle days, the twinge of them no mere nip. Now I ask whether he held up most of those gallops at low tide, rewards for his willingness to carry me? Or can neglect be curried out through the burnishing strokes of my daughter’s brush?
Mary Fister teaches writing and literature at the University of Hartford where she has been a professor for thirty-something years. Her poems have appeared in journals such as The Massachusetts Review, Ploughshares, Tar River Poetry, and Volt, among others. Her chapbook, Provenance of the Lost, was published by Finishing Line Press. Her first full-length book, Quick to Bolt, is being released in April 2023 from Green Writers Press. She lives with her kitties BooDah and Maibee, and her horse, Milli. ____________________________________________________________________________________________ Three O’clock in the Morning (Waltz, 1922) I’d pump the foot-bellows until I panted, my fingers braced under the keyboard, whose ivories were scaling off like winter hangnails. Inside a sliding door above the music shelf, each roll spooled down past tiny dark slots in the tracker bar, releasing a vacuum that made the hammers hit the piano strings— the punched code worked much as in Jacquard looms used to weave luxurious brocades and damasks. Chords and big bass intervals were rolled shamelessly from pinkie to thumb; the treble wobbled with cheap tremolo; glissandos filled in any blank spots in the Tin Pan Alley lyrics printed in block-letter syllables in the right margin. Perched there I watched the holes rush past like Niagara, the runs of notes rippling right to left and back, every phrase at the same thumping pace, and I would sing along, warbling each syllable with its partner-note, though the lyrics my grandparents had favored back in the '20s were revoltingly saccharine to a nine-year-old. In Vienna at three o’clock, party-goers may have been waltzing, giddy, but in Ohio at three, it was afternoon: Grandma was outdoors pulling wash off the line; Grandpa was in his shop pushing a plank through the migraine scream of his plane saw; I was pumping out “It’s three o’clock in the mor-ning” or “Just a cot-tage small by a wat-er-fall,” wondering who it was that waited by that garden gate to smile my troubles away, or why I laughed as I yodeled, “All a-lone, I’m so all a-lone.”
Lynn Gilbert’s poems have appeared in The Banyan Review, Blue Unicorn, Concho River Review, Exquisite Corpse, Gnu, Kansas Quarterly, Light, Mezzo Cammin, Mortar, Peninsula Poets, Southwestern American Literature, and elsewhere. She lives in a suburb of Austin, TX. _____________________________________________________________________________________________________ A Potter’s Field The cold silver of the river reflected branches ornamented with bras, face masks, a plastic chair. A detonation of geese drifted to the transformers and towers; a lone heron loomed, blue and gone. Now, the city drones like a conscience, neighborhoods perforated with churches, pimpled with overturned trash bins. Still, I drink the liftoff of eleven cardinals in the yard next door in one cherry gulp. How they must miss their missing kin. He had scrabbled after the scattered seeds just as they had, had asked a few of the more complex questions. But he’d erred greatly, flown from the others, as rumors alighted his dead feathers had fallen into a field. A traveling tradesman once swore he’d seen him soar in some flyover state, and they hope he knows he has suffered enough, that should he shuffle in with downturned beak and slurred whistle, they would, with wide wings, welcome his return. Abandoned Fairytale You can’t miss it: along US-30, the towering Pied Piper of Hamelin, patriotic in his red pants, his blue jacket and cap, golden instrument pressed to his lips— From street to street he piped, advancing/ And step for step, they followed, dancing But the fairytale park has been closed for decades, the rest of the giant statues— the goofy pink egg atop a stone wall, the whale with a knight on its tongue, the brown shoe (conveniently roofed), the mushroom with a door and chimney, as if someone resides in the stipe— are dingy, deteriorating. So much is abandoned, left in the past. There was an old woman who lived in a shoe,/ She had so many children she didn’t know what to do What to do with the ten thousand miles behind us, with the hundred or so left to go? Do we continue to merge like streams, or do we diverge, disentangle, drift apart like tides until years utterly obscure the other from view? Simple Simon went a-fishing/For to catch a whale:/All the water he had got/ Was in his mother’s pail While a sack of pale scenes dangles at my side, the flayed light simmers out of the sky, and I’m back in Memphis, sequined pants sparkling on an animatronic Elvis; back in Phoenix, the dusty shoes of Japanese internment camp prisoners stacked up like bones; back in North Platte, the Buffalo Bill Cody shrine jutting from the Nebraskan flatness, wooden and phallic. Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall,/ Humpty Dumpty had a great fall We drive on, past cracked Schellsburg storefront windows, empty and eerie, past all those museums we’d perused, glimpsing ourselves reflected back in the panes of glass. Everything after tonight will be remembering a remembering. The mind recalls itself, recollecting what cannot be collected again. Old Mother Goose, when/ She wanted to wander,/Would—
Ben Groner III (Nashville, TN), recipient of a Pushcart Prize nomination and Texas A&M University’s 2014 Gordone Award for undergraduate poetry, has work published in Whale Road Review, GASHER, The Shore, Rust + Moth, and elsewhere. He’s also a former bookseller at Parnassus Books. You can find his work at https://bengroner.com/. ____________________________________________________________________________________________ Solysium* Already it has come to this, my habits odd even to me, rising after midnight for an hour or two to listen for the heat pump and bump around the Internet before returning to bed for three more hours filled with busy, peopled dreams. Days of pondering my next meal, cooking beans or lentils, and polishing my long nails, to let them dry while reading five books at a time. I wear a knitted cap all day, one that doubles as an eye mask at night. I sit out of sight to watch the stray cats come to feed on the back porch, note which ones use the two cat houses I built for them. My inside cat says no one else is welcome. Wasn’t this the life I always imagined, longed for? To live alone in the woods reading, writing, reading, writing, to nap near a wood stove fire, with only pets, without the critical voices of lovers, parents, and former friends, except for the voices I’ve internalized—my dire quest to shut them up, to bind and gag them, and place them on the pyre. *noun. The unhinged delirium of being alone for an extended period of time. From The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows by John Koenig. A combination of solitude + asylum + Elysium (heaven). Pronounced “soh-lee’-zee-uhm.” Joan Mazza worked as a medical microbiologist, psychotherapist, and taught workshops on understanding dreams and nightmares. She is the author of six self-help psychology books, including Dreaming Your Real Self. Her poetry has appeared in Slant, Valparaiso Poetry Review, Prairie Schooner, Italian Americana, Poet Lore, The MacGuffin, Potomac Review, The Nation, and elsewhere. She lives in rural central Virginia and writes daily. ____________________________________________________________________________________________ Slow Churned Summers at my grandparents’, we Made ice cream the old-fashioned way: Circled up around a Newspapered workspace on the kitchen floor, The churn as headliner, Pouring the cream into its metal bucket Set into the wooden barrel, Then packing the space in between with Ice and rock salt Till our hands burned, We had to remember not to wipe our eyes. Sealing the churn, each kid wanting the first turn at the crank— Ten, twenty, thirty quick spins and then done, The crank-handlers getting older as the Turning got harder, Lifting the lid sometimes to Scrape down the slushy sides, The task always outlasting Our short-legged patience, Until, in the end, it was my grandfather Alone, in the kitchen, Sweaty, but smiling, bidding us back in to Dip our spoons into that chest of sweetest treasure: Creamy, with a hint of salt, More delicious, as it hit our tongues, For how long it has come, Sprinkled with the salty-sweet crinkles Of Grandpa’s icy-blue eyes, There, as if to remind us, That transformation Is the work Of a lifetime.
K.E. McCoy's poetry has appeared in Remington Review, Riverbed Review, Eunoia Review, Stoneboat Literary Journal, and Willows Wept Review. Her poem "Reversal" received a Pushcart nomination. She lives with her husband and children in Wisconsin. _________________________________________________________________________________________________ The Border Crows cross it with ease in their hidden blackness and the wind crosses it without a visa in the tracks of wolves in the burr of bees But it’s a line drawn in the sand and oceans wash it away or it’s a yellow line down a wide street and no one can pass It holds us in like the shell of a tortoise or a bad egg a softness broken Wave goodbye then to your Derry grandmothers to the Highland clan who wandered back and forth across oceans for a crop for a potato or a promise They moved as you moved north to a new territory married a renegade a disbeliever a profligate away from the old faith of do-it-yourself of make-my-day to slip back and forth on a crow’s invisible visa
George Moore has poetry in The Atlantic, Poetry, Colorado Review, Orion, and Stand. His collections include Children’s Drawings of the Universe (Salmon Poetry 2015) and Saint Agnes Outside the Walls (FutureCycle 2016). He lives on the south shore of Nova Scotia. _________________________________________________________________________________________________ The Fossil Hunter for Mary Anning (1799-1847) It was lightning, said many—a bolt of lightning that flung unlooked-for brilliance into an unlikely mind. Others explained it differently: divine favour. Either way, the most fortunate fossil finder on the Dorset coast (maybe in all of England) had a knack for spotting flying dragons deep in the layers of limestone and shale laid down by Jurassic seas. The fossil hunter, a carpenter’s child, combed the windblown cliffs each day; collected, classified, and drew; assembled clues to the mysteries of the earth and humankind. Pieced-together bits of bone became long-necked lizards, sharp-snouted fish. And, sure enough, geological gentlemen found their way to her door to study plesiosaurs—ichthyosaurs—the whorled shells of marine mollusks. Skeletons left behind in clay came to rest on mantelpieces in London and under exhibition glass in Paris and Berlin. Darwin and Lamarck pioneered their theories. Lightning-struck or God-gifted, the carpenter’s daughter understood that the earth was old and life changed with the ages. Outside the parish church she lies, on a cliff crumbling into the sea.
Laurie D. Morrissey is a New Hampshire writer of poetry, essays, and nonfiction. Her poems have been published in Poetry East, Appalachia, Blueline, The Worcester Review, Modern Haiku, and other journals. She is the author of the haiku poetry collections all the stars i can swallow and the slant of april snow. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________ Stealing Buddha Ten-pound stone Buddhas don’t seem like they would be ripe for pilfering, but the statue I bought in a garden shop disappeared after bar-time, snatched by a drunken thief. I’d kept the saint beside my front steps: corpulent stone legs curled in lotus, puffy face deformed by perpetual cheer. A friend smirked, “Someone is going to steal that thing. Call me cynical.” Who would swipe a deity? Three mornings later, I opened my door, saw the void where Buddha had rested: grey eyes blank as he regarded 6th Avenue traffic. Buddha would say the spot was the same without him, since he never existed at all. I cursed the friend who saw my fate coming. She knew I needed a lesson in non-attachment, yet I still mourned the fifty bucks I spent on a whim. Westerners grasp karma like ants divine calculus. Or perhaps ants divine calculus, but my cranium overflows with decaying material: piles of obsolete newspapers, mildewed from lack of use. Either way, the moral eludes me. I imagine Buddha in a stoner’s living room beside a wide-screen television, fronted by an enormous bong. The thief can’t recall how a deity entered his apartment. Buddha materialized from nothing, as he has for thousands of years. Now, the void remains where my statue once sat. Vacant space bears its own weight. Buddha’s eyes follow each passing car. No one can see him but me.
Leah Mueller's work appears in Rattle, NonBinary Review, Citron Review, The Spectacle, Miracle Monocle, New Flash Fiction Review, Atticus Review, Your Impossible Voice, among others. She is a 2023 nominee for both Pushcart and Best of the Net. Her flash piece, "Land of Eternal Thirst," appears in the 2022 edition of Best Small Fictions. Website: www.leahmueller.org. _____________________________________________________________________________________________________ Coal Country Fog & coal dust work their alchemy on winter hills, blotting bark & limbs until the tangle of brown softens to plum. In this valley, even air pollution is an asset— a curtain that can be closed. At a quarter to seven, a stray dog yelps, a toddler with a sagging diaper darts from a trailer, a Chevy rolls to a stop. It idles as a child gets out, places a penny on the track. He lays his ear to the rail. No crossing gate severs the one-lane road ahead of the truck. Two longs and a short— the only warning as a Norfolk Southern rounds the bend. Its cyclops headlight pierces the haze. For a moment, father & son can see clearly, the bare-chested baby playing in the cold. After the train passes, the boy bends down to harvest the copper coin, then heads back to the Chevy. Arms out, toe to heel atop the rail, he looks up only after he’s sure the view is blurred by his breath—warm as the penny pressed into his palm.
Lorrie Ness is a poet in Virginia. Her work can be found in numerous journals, including THRUSH, Palette Poetry, and Sky Island Journal. She was nominated for a Pushcart Prize in 2021, and her chapbook, Anatomy of a Wound, was published by Flowstone Press in July of 2021. ___________________________________________________________________________________________________ Trash Day They were brawny men, thick and heavy-gloved, smelling of work, gripping the tail of the truck, house by house, one stutter step at a time. Each Wednesday, a week’s life wheeled out in bins. A tale of midden: fists of tissue, condoms, tomato remains and the skins of spuds. Now. A single man in a cab of glass, grabbing with arms of metal and joint, no sweat, no muscle, just the strain of engine and the heedless lift, dump and crush. It always ends the same— in a graveyard of stories heaped and buried, the voices muffled by the orphaned stuff of the earth.
Richard Rubin is a retired librarian and library educator who has been writing poetry for personal satisfaction for many years. Recently, he published some of his current work in Great Lakes Review, Willows Wept Review, Kakalak, and American Diversity Report. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________ One More Test Waiting to drive to my morning appointment, I hear your voice, bearer of a half-heard omen, jumbled information from a game of Telephone. I ignore you, push aside the worry that has led me to postpone this visit twice. The doctor is young. She’s nice, as my mother used to say of people who (she would convince herself) had only noble motives— car mechanics, neighbors wielding aspirations. You chirp again, song so bright and sweet I wonder if you’re nothing but a fledgling or a fantasy this fine open-doorstep morning. With resolve I do not have for my visit to the clinic, I rise, scent of raspberries livening June light, garden hard at work with honeybees and myriad green leaf-eaters. I’m strangely lit: Who are you? Someone’s messenger? I angle for a straight-on glimpse, the way a CT scan might tell my young physician if there’s a shadow where there shouldn’t be. Through the screen door, light and leaves swirl their private pas de deux. Swift movement cuts the show. You’re gone, and now it’s time to go.
Leland Seese's poems appear in RHINO, The Stonecoast Review, The Chestnut Review, Rust & Moth, and many other journals. His poem "PTSD" received honorable mention in the North Carolina Poetry Society's "Poems of Courage" contest judged by Ebony Stewart. He and his wife live in Seattle, their six grown children nearby. Contact him at www.lelandseesepoetry.com. _________________________________________________________________________________________________________ Levon Helm Sings for All the Virgil Caines Your dream address can be anywhere down any rail of regret. A train whistle far away but close as a heartbeat buried in song. In defeat Virgil Caine can’t dig back up his Confederate brother, killed by a Yankee bullet, reminding you of your lost brothers, in mud and blood of Vietnam. Now that war rests heavy on your shoulders, your dream address leaves you face to face with all the Virgil Caines. The demeanor of those who have given blood and mind, have eyes vacant as empty houses, their teeth like fences needing mending. You want to tell them something about taking the best from a generation and your refusing to relent, the letter that saved you from the draft. You breathe through your eyelids, as if a mystic suddenly at the Café Paradiso, a name you made up, for the heaven of it, and sitting there alone, with a bitter coffee, you listen to that dream train split its whistle cry apart and collect the shards into a glittering rail of song. Billy the Kid in a Bookshop Poetry was as dangerous as his fast gun. He’d shoot it out with Federico Lorca when he carried his books into the desert. They’d even find him with Ferlinghetti’s work, out among leftover stars before morning. The blonde cashier asked him if he was famous. But Billy thought only of Boot Hill and the 400 graves left unattended. The gunslinger was paging furiously through a Bible he kept in the top pocket of his chapped jean jacket, a ranch hand who caught straying cattle for John Tunstall, an English rancher who taught the Regulators croquet before he was murdered. Billy the Kid, lost in time, found his fast draw was for books. He should be in a desert hole, not here, visible to his killers. He hadn’t shaved in three days. “You look kind of familiar to me,” she whispered, mistaking him for someone she could not name. There seemed to be an uneasy truce between him and the world of poetry. Her freckles danced when she asked if she could snap his picture for their wall, and, without making a foolish move, he smiled back, his buck teeth like the dull blaze of bullets.
Russell Thorburn is the author of Somewhere We’ll Leave the World (Wayne State University Press). A National Endowment for the Arts recipient and first poet laureate of Michigan’s Upper Peninsula, he lives in Marquette with his wife. His poems have appeared in many literary journals and anthologies, including, Respect: The Poetry of Detroit Music and Undocumented: Great Lakes Poet Laureates on Social Justice. Thorburn’s new poetry collection, Let It Be Told in a Single Breath, will be published by University of Wisconsin-Stevens Point, Cornerstone Press, in 2024. _____________________________________________________________________________________________________